Doodles of the Insane

Today was not a good day at the college..after all when had it been good when there is a viva?? I hate them so much..Bcoz the reason is I am somewhat poor in practical things..And to know why I am poor in those, my attendance will solve the mystery.. I love studying for theory exams(I really mean it!!).. Basically I love working hard .. I just love those pre-exam days when I go on without a stop for more than 14 hrs a day.. Now in this pre final, we write three subjects viz. ENT, Ophthalmology, PSM(preventive & Social Medicine).. I will appear for those in January ,probably 23rd.. So I just hate these days with no real hard things to do .. I know there's a hell of things to be known yet I don't feel like grabbing them to my brain disk.. Yes I am feeling Lazy!! And coming back to today's exam, I had to record the case from the patient and present it before the professor..the case was recorded well(courtesy:case sheet and friends!!:D:D) and when it came to presenting ,

Where am I dragging this thing ? This thing everyone control, Yet disapprove that they do! With trails left behind Upon the grass green Lost in the arid sand A vicious circle, it had been. Do I know where I go? If I had , I would have been Not a mortal! A step ahead of it! friends!! I had been out of this sphere for some time and will continue being the same till the end of this month(just 3 more days!).For I have to work atleast a bit for the pediatrics exam.So catch you soon after the clouds passes by!Till then logging off!! Jattz

I was comfortably numb & dumb, But this atrocious crust made me succumb! How pure I was in that womb? Will my flesh decay in my tomb? The skin embossed with the spines in line, I knew , I am the porcupine! Of bleeding others , involuntarily, I feel heavy with cardiomegaly! Touching me , Why do you regret? Don't you know , its my reflex? How would you , poor mortal! Only HE knows the way I feel! The sun & the moon takes rest, but my eyes are spared from its zest! Dwelling under this blanket of gloom, now , it has become my doom! I am shutting down my heart! There's none around me unhurt! I don't wish to start to again! I would better end my lively pain! this post is to all the victims of the porcupine[thats me!];I have hurt almost everyone around me, please forgive me!! There's a hell of things pricking inside the porcupine.Trust me!! GOD SAVE ALL!!

Am I the one in a million?? Nope, I am just another simian!! I can see me no more unique; I feel a constant impulse to kick!! Curse My pretence?? I don't know whom to trust!! After all, is this play a must?? Why do I seek the perfect, in a world of rudimentary puppets?? Curse the parasitic world?? Lust dressed in the pseudonym of Love, how many more iniquity do I owe?? I know what matters is the core!! But my blind eyes wanna see more!! Curse the perverted eyes?? This habit of choosing the best & unjustly justifying the rest, Won't it not act unaided without me?? From these Walls, will I ever break free?? Curse the putrid mind? Evilly, living this life of lies, beneath my surface, now nothing lies!! I stand with my arms wide apart, ready to depart!! Curse this predatory life?? Where do we lose our innocence?? Is that deficiency termed ignorance?? My acuity is blurred without a lens; Do I wear my shoes as a penance?? Curse My precarious diplomacy?? To swim in this sea of s

I saw her, on a day I was born, first. From then, none could quench my thirst. she was cute, & I was a brute. yet it was a match made at the celestial abode. It was love at first sight. I sheltered her with all my might. I have laughed,cried,lied,spoken everything to her with my heart open. I thought I would live with her forever. But it all ended in no where. She was more than a friend. But all good things come to an end. May be I was holding her too tight. Now, I've to be an insomniac at night. Tell me where did you go? To the high Heaven or the Hell so low? For I've to ask you, "Did you ever love me??"

Of the music, the purest, Betwixt the souls, the rarest, The spell of scintillating silence. To hurt, do I've the license? To coagulate,I nipped the bud, To hire peace in the bed. The dead dreams, of my sight, Now I wonder whether its right? When I see you, let me be blind! I don't wish my heart to grind! From the inside of my head, I hear two, of which I am confused which is true? The bleed is now indocile. I am sick of being a missile, that penetrates other's leaf. Do these sins count to my life?

Prologue: What do you think of medicos??They are exceptional hard workers striving for more than 18 hrs a day and barely sleep the stipulated 6 hrs.Brilliant,bright,eminent,excellent etc..Is this what you think of medicos?? If yes, give a second thought and read the following with eyes wide open.If no, still you will have to read with eyes slightly open atleast the epilogue. Inside the four walls , there were some teenagers sitting in rows and columns deserting the anterior segments of the wooden furnitures. Most of them were staring into a black painted canvas where the eldest of the experienced campaigner was playing his magic with one hand with the brush and his cacophonous yet seducing voice from his habituated vocal cords. 1-Behind the empty front row of wood, some look as if being hypnotized by the spell of the professor. As calm as the wise, rock as the diamond , they stay unmoved, uninhibited even by the flies ,parked over their nose ,showering the millions of infectious path

So friends , I am back with my blog dressed in a new wear.Hope you people like it.And about the break, I have returned prematurely for sure.I have no justifications to justify why I left and why I come back. May be my senses are getting a bit degenerated. May be I am really getting reformed into an insane!Tolerate with me and my insanity once again friends.... I start with a tag left in my desk pending, passed on by Vitruvian @ Sneha Padmanabhan . This is not that hard as all I have to do is scribble some 8 facts about myself.Moreover this is my first tag and I have enough patience to do atleast this.So let me recollect my history.Here it goes.... 1 -I was born on 14th January 1987 in southern Tamil Nadu(India).Its a special date in southern India bcoz its when we celebrate PONGAL in Tamil Nadu and UGADHI in other states such as Karnataka and Andhra Pradesh and I have little knowledge abt Kerala . I have never celebrated my birthday in school or college due to the reason I was born on

I could hardly come out for a tea these days.Its pouring down in tons unexpectedly.And my mind has been strangely out of thoughts peacefully.The atmosphere is so gloomy.And I am gonna take a short break till the mother nature plays on my side inspiring my thoughts to more posts. And I might not be sailing through your shores for a while.I am exiled out of my mind.Will return soon.... P.S. the doodler is known for his stable mind which shivers as much as his heart at a rate of 72 beats per minute.He will be back any time.