Doodles of the Insane

What runs in the back of the human mind has always been a mystery. Right now, a hundred thoughts flash through me. But I don’t pen them all down for you to read. I have my own filters and inhibitions, according to the people and the circumstances, I am engrossed in. Inhibition is a complicated process. Why do we feel inhibited and what factors affect our inhibitions? Lets explore the plethora of possibilities, uninhibited. Inhibition has to be an evolutionary adaptation, we acquired en route to our current confusing stand. Tracing back, the cavemen roamed around freely and naked throughout their lifetime, like animals. Unlike the present day animals, we have changed, in the name of social and cultural conditioning. When I mean, being naked, it necessarily doesn't mean just the body but also the nakedness of the mind or the soul. The social and cultural conditioning of the body brought us an enormous fashionable array of clothes catering to each an every part of our ...

Hey you,   You the lonely soul wandering   remorselessly in this wretched place, lost.. Do you think, you will last? Hey you, You the reason behind countless smiles in this world.. When was the last time you carved a smile on you? Hey you,   You the melancholia masked   perfectly under your serene face, What do you get for yourself, by hiding these monsters underneath? Hey you,   You the one trying to run   away from every shadow, When do you think you will reach the end of the world? Hey you,   You the one dreaming   of a non-existential stable fable, How do you propose to wake up from your deep slumber? Hey you,   You the one trying to fill up that void deep inside you, What are you fishing for in shallow waters? Hey you, You the one longing to pour your love out to...

You have walked too far to reach here in a delicate spot. You have waited too long to pounce at the precise moment. You believed in a lie decorated with glistening hope. You relied on your patience a bit too much. But now, the hour glass is empty. It needs to be reversed down. The sand and the time  has to flow and pass, again. Will you still play along  to the tunes and the chorus  of the century old  white-beards and their sweet lies  to make your impasse, gentler? Your heart is brimming with Love. Your mind is stuffed with Hope. Your clothing's beams are stretched, for it cannot contain the inevitable. Your head is exploding  at the rate of a nuclear fusion. Your organs experience an evolving transient mutation. Your myopic eyes can't see the dream you had in your younger mind. You wage a war between chance and choice. You see chaos all around, inside and outside. You are los...

What do you see? A fragile silhouette about to collapse. A distant fury of ruffling feathers. A frail cry from the deep blues. A disguised embodiment of bottled emotions. A slideshow of your favorite disgusting memories. A disillusioned future soaked in colorless amber. Do you see anything at all? or   Do you see everything? Try to change your focus. Maybe you will see what lies beneath, or at least, that something lurks underneath. Maybe its dark inside and outside, that you have chosen to be blind, easily. Switch on a light. Strike a match. Do you still see the same? or   Do you choose to see the same? Why choose light,   When you can stay   blind and silent in the dark? Why prefer hope, When you can brood and   rest in peace ? Now, we are on the same page. You see, what I speak of. ‘Move on’, you say; But I h...

Thats how I would describe or disguise this year in a word - Self Love. Looking back, I have definitely had better years before, but not anything in the immediate past, I can think of, even in this decade. A decade that’s been crucial for my growth and maturity, emotionally and psychologically. But it should also be remembered that growth and maturity are synonymous with the losses and damages inflicted upon us by life at various stages. We wish and dream that, life would get better every year. But only the damages and casualties get better and fulfill your wishes, unfortunately but unremarkably! Maybe I am pessimistic, a lot, but nevertheless, optimistic a lot, for the coming decade. It cannot be a slope, forever. Forever is a word, I was fantasizing a lot, at the beginning of this decade. Now at the fag end of the decade, it has beautifully demonstrated to me that its a word to be found in a dreamer’s dictionary alone. 2019 started with a heavy heart and a confuse...

The idea is to buy the books at large and stock them or hoard them, whatever or however you wish to call the process. Because, I firmly believe that there will be a time for everything. The universe shall keep sending you signals throughout. Its up to us to receive them and decipher them and make proper use of them. Here’s a book, I bought back in 2011, when my habit was to buy books with catchy titles rather than the review and research process which I have embodied into me, at least in some occasions now. Man’s search for meaning. Anyone who is inclined into a bit of philosophy in his/her troubled transitional teenage, would definitely find it extremely difficult to walk across this book, without adding it to the cart. So that’s how I got acquainted with Dr. Viktor E. Frankl, the author of this inspirational book.   But reading it completely, especially a non-fiction, is a different ball game, altogether. Your curiosity alone wouldn't be sufficient ...